April 23, 2010

My Husband is Gone...

for three days I can't see him or even talk to him.
I feel so lost! haha

At least the wives of the other "cowboys" miss their husbands too!
(that means I am not totally a loser! its only been one day!)

I don't like sleeping alone.

April 14, 2010

So Blessed.

"When I heard the news,
My heart fell on the floor
I was on a plane on my way to Baltimore
In these trouble times its hard enough as it is
My soul has a known a better life than this

I wonder how so many can be in so much pain,
While others dont seem to feel a thing
Then I curse my whiteness,
and I get so damn depressed,
In a world of suffering,
Why should I be so blessed?
-Brett Dennen

I've been listening to this song a lot lately, feeling so blessed for the things I have, for the place I live.

My little sister just went to Guatemala for 10 days to do humanitarian work. Maybe thats why these thoughts have been running circles in my head, but I feel so blessed. I think about times when I complain about the little things like when theres no hot water left in the shower, or the heater in the house isn't warm enough. I am trying to be optimistic lately, I should feel so blessed to have these things in my life everyday.

I've traveled A LOT around the world, I have been to alot of 3rd world countries and I've seen the way most people live. I am so thankful for people like Haleigh who devote their time to serve others, to help make someones life a little better.

Brian and I go to Paraguay in two months. I can't wait to go, I hope I can do something to help others while we are there visitng his mission.

April 9, 2010


Just recently, Brian and I attended our friends, Maddie & Og's, stake conference. Their stake is a married student stake at BYU. It was nice to be around people who were all in the same situation as us; working full-time, students full-time, hardly getting to see their spouse. These were people we could relate to.. Our ward is older and I am almost positive we are the only newlyweds (being as the other newlyweds who moved in after us, moved to a new house!)

Anyways, my whole point of this was that those talks have been playing in my head for weeks now. One line in particular.

"Men, if you saw your wives the way our Heavenly Father did, you would fall to your knees."

Tears filled his eyes as he spoke these words and his voice shook. Wow, what a strong, amazing statement.

This statment has been such a motivation, it has helped me to want to be the best wife/friend/woman I can be. I can only hope to continue to learn and to live to be just that. I have a long way to go, but I know I can do it.

I am so thankful for a husband who helps me daily, teaches me to be a better person, who puts me before others and loves me. He is the best friend ever, and I only hope one day I can be seen by not only him, but everyone, the way Heavenly Father sees me.

April 6, 2010

"For with God nothing shall be impossible."
-Luke 1:37

I love this scripture. It has so much power. It helps me daily.
I love my Savior.